The bliss of First love!

Strange though, but after five years,I still suddenly feel like talking about my first relationship... guess some days you want to feel EIGHTEEN again!.. or it is something, which I reflected before my eyes post watching "LAWS of ATTRACTION"

It all started with orkut, to say. I came across this pseudo intellectual profile, very similar to mine in terms of taste, approach and much more. The guy was a friend' friend... and I added, the first unknown person I added myself in my profile.

We started chatting online, shared a comfortable zone as had a common known node in between. Slowly and gradually, we started talking on phone. It was different and it was special, because it was first time. the feeling was not clear, but the very fact that there is something new and delightful to look forward to each moment was enjoyable in itself. The tiny winy sms'es on everything and anything, waiting for a sms in return, not replying to sms just to tease... it was all so special. Sitting and smiling all by myself all alone and running away from ground , just to gain some privacy in my thoughts and talks... it all seemed so mesmerising. The feeling was new and it was unknown. Having somebody outside college and somebody who talked beyond apparel and fashion was a good change in itself, especially for a techie freak like me.

Philosophy, literature, news, work, college, grades... we had a perspective on everything and points to agree and disgree on everthing. And utilising Hutch's free 100sms per day scheme was even more encouraging. I still remember, running to dark and lonely corners of college, rock gardens, sitting on benches in midnight when its chilly out and talking incessantly on phone. For a cut to cut talker on phone like me, holding phone for continuous two hours was pain  but enjoyable pain.

And then, coming back to the room to resume work, putting headphones on my ears, listening to savage Garden, Backstreet Boys and Marc Anthony was like reaching heaven and meeting God itself. It was a state of ultimate bliss. I guess teenage love is like that. You have all time and free time for yourself to delve yourself in any fantasy for any amount of time.

I did not realise though, but the glow of bliss was evident in my softened approach to people, and my face.It was just glowing, though a stupid like me was last one to realise, but those who knew me as careless ones were first to notice and remark though still unaware of the reasons. I was happy always, nothing could make me unhappy, even the breakup with best friend.

Finding more about someone you like, thinking more about him, finding ways to make him happy and keep conversation going, it was always so exciting!

And, then I landed for a week's place in the land of no connectivity Hampi, yet it could not deter my excitement. I would walk 6 kms up the cliff just to get signal in morning and talk for those five min. and then access internet@ 70rs. per half an hour to leave a message on orkut. And, the best part was I was just happy, only happy and nothing else mattered.

But, then relationships are not a matter of liking and absorbing in thoughts, they need balance of thought and maturity too, which most of us dont carry in TEENS:).

I've been in other relationships post that, but the one that was first always remains special and full of innocence and devoid of expectations... they say love changes life... looking back, I cant afford to disagree, though I've been a feminist and a non conformist to it for quite long.

I happen to somehow remember lines from Taare Zameen Par, though it has no relation to what I've blabbered about " Love, saying that 'I care' has the medicinal power, it assures the child that come what may, I am going to be there, so what if things go wrong or you do wrong, I am going to be there"

Love and attention make a lot of difference, not only in a love couple relationship, but in all relationships we care for!!